受够了，再怎么强颜欢笑也不行了。。我要疯了！！！！！

Tired weekS!! Last kambatte before spring break..

Sigghhhh....I guess this time really was the hardest moment since I came here.. never fell that stress + depress before..Honestly I havnt really prepared and rest and plan since got back from Malaysia..until NOW!! and yet SPRING BREAK coming soon!!!

Gosh.. everyday sure have atleast 2 quizzes.. then the next week sure got a paper due, and exam.. >< !! I have been drinking coffee almost every day..every night.. I think I'd addicted now.. the best record was 5 cups a day..and more than 20 cups in 5 days.. Since after got back, I never sleep more than 7 hours, until that day back from Skiing..average just sleep for 5 hours..

LAst 10 days were the worst period in my life.. lost my pendrive (although Im pretty sure I brought it with me!! then coldest weather in these few months,-40F.. then did superbadly in test..(yea..superbad means failed! ) then relationships suddently like the stock market in Msia.. going down so SMOOTHLY ><

anyway...after the skiing trip.. and did something that my friend said could 花钱消灾, my life yday and today was changing back.. u have no idea how bad luck was I.. I was so glad if my life just going normal..just normal day I 谢天谢地 already..

Skiing!! Fun fun~

Ready to rock!! ^^

Get ready for it!!

Skiing~~

Best board that that place!!

Taken when skiing..thank god didnt fall down..

Going up hills

I challenged it!! ^^

Nice board...

Overview

ARE U KIDDING ME?!!! give me that!!

Time to say goodbye~

Although there is so damn lots snow here..although I hv been here like 2 years.. but this was the first time try to ski..whao.. it was so much fun, especially in the good weather, 1C
well..for sure it is more fun that ice-skating (admit it..ice skate is kinda lame compared to skiing or snowboarding!!
well..my next challenge will be snowboarding!! kekeke..

Valentine's day

Wah..its been awhile for that..and its so hard to share..so

这是不能说的秘密！！

CNY!!

Finally have the time to blog for things happened in CNY..its almost been a week, what to do, everyday so busy about exams, and election is coming soon, although is none of my business, but when everyone discuss about it, sure wana pat abit la..

For Chinese new year, We..the Malaysians had a portluck CNY eve at Fargo, as usual, everyone will make something out.. I feel so lucky to have them, cuz everyone is good cook!! Its really hard to say who cook the best, so everyone have to improve their cooking skills.. I was so busy for exam recently, and I really got some new dishes that can try to cook, but it will just take me for years. So I decided to cook bak kut tee again, even thou they tried before. However, this time I changed a little bit, I didn’t use pork as like usual pak kut tee, I used deer meat Instead! So I just called it ‘lu’ kut tee!! ^^

I got the meat from my roommate, who’s family went hunting last month..and tell you! The meat is so yummy..like beef, but you can feel the texture is different..
Anyway, we really had a fun night, I finally got the chance to wear the Chinese TangZhuang for CNY!! (bought in Msia..lol) We took a lot of pictures, know some new friends (quite pretty~) and most importantly, we waited until 12am to count down..and of course yam sheng!!!!!

The next day, first day of CNY…keep busying for school work until 4pm, then quickly go back home and get changed, because I need to get back to school again, for our Chinese Club CNY party..this time so many people came to visit.. Im so glad can meet my Japanese sister, Moe!!
She used to be exchange student in my first sem and she got back last summer, right now she back to this place for vacation! Its almost a year didn’t see her.. now I really miss the friends that I met in my first sem..too bad they all gone.><

Anyway..it was the worst party ever I think! Not enough food nor drinks for all the people, the food just for about 80 people, but more than 200 people showed up!! Gosh.. it was embarrassing! I was helping them to get food, and I didn’t get the free food also!! The performance, come on..its Chinese new year! What for ask some American kids performing tae kwan doo.. (faint*) and some really lame activities..
But there was 3 chinese girl sand Jay’s qin hua chi! ^^ muahaha… Jay spirit in Moorhead!!! Oh ya.. I got my first angpao in 2 years!!!! So touching T-T

Well..I told myself have to get back around 8pm, but I got home at 9p, helped them cleaned up the mess.. and I have test the next morning, so I made a jug of coffee, and it company me until 4am..then go to class at 9..

Same for the weekand, although no school, but still busy for exam..so scare abt it.. especially Molecular Biology!!..I really try to understand..but I think it just too advance for me..
Another 3am sleep time for me today, already third day for 4-hours sleep @@
And still..I know I gonna fail the test today, just after the test.. For the first time in my life so confident that I will fail in this test ..it sounds pathetic ,doesn’t it?

Anyway, its time for me to get some rest this 2 days.. cuz I know my hard days will come again. Overall, this Chinese New Year I had fun, full of happiness although not in the right time..but I feel that my spring moment will come soon!

Pre-post for CNY

Really busy for this few days..Exam..CNY..Exam again..Celebrate again.. Exam again..and EXAM!! GOSH!! How many exams u want me to take?!!! GODDDDD!!!!!

Sigh...after meeting u..really feel the Spring is coming..but where are you now?!!!
T-T

HAPPY CNY!!

Perhaps this could be the worst CNY ever, Examing..HW-ing.. and electioning.. so many things going on and on..but still.. I will enjoy it as much as I could! ^^

HappY cNy everyone!~

哭，也是一种幸福

无意中在Ipod 听到"哭"这首歌，shuffle的好处就是，不知道放了什么个进去，如果听到一首陌生的好歌， 就会觉得好幸运！！anyway,阿牛的歌词真的是好贴切！要找到这样的歌词好不容易，虽然是老歌,但不会因时代的变化而落伍，这首歌就算再过20年都还很有意思！
好久没痛快地哭了。。要哭，对我来说，是一种幸福，虽然还记得最后一次痛哭是8月8号(thats y another reason for blog title)

虽然是试过或许能像我大哥酱，赫最后就能痛哭，但还是做不到，喝醉反而更不想哭，但心里更忧闷了。。所以，要报握哭的时候！ ^^

歌曲：哭
歌手：阿牛 专辑：城市蓝天

以前我看到朋友哭我很羡慕
可是我怎么逗我自己怎么弄我自己
我的眼泪都流不出
总觉得能够哭的朋友都很幸福
能够把满的无奈满腔的痛苦
让泪水带走最苦是泪水哽在心头
流不出就象要爱却不懂怎么去爱
自己哭过后才明白流过泪的眼睛
将生命看得更清楚
只有真正懂得付出的人
才懂得何为哭为何哭
再坚强的心偶尔也会脆弱
心会疼也也会感动
只有曾经真心付出的人
泪水要记得为真心保留
眼泪别白白地流
最苦是泪水哽在心头

Bro's Engagement party!!

Finally..my ah sou/お姉さん was back from Korea, exchange student ma... then my bro, who is Taiwanese-American, decided to have this party on their anniversary day.. a very special day for them and the football fans, cuz its the same moment with SUPERBOWL!!

anyway, we all had a nice portluck party..everyone cooked something that special.. Well.. Seriously..all the food were so damn good..no matter Malaysian..Korean..Japanese or even American foods.. everything was awesome! Well.. the portluck here is kinda pressure sometimes.. cuz everyone cook pretty well, so U have to cook DAMN DELICIOUS only can become best of the best..
For this i hv been trying hard man.. from bak kut teh till pan mee... from mapo tofu till curry fish.. from steak to even salmon stir-fry with Msian source.. Luckily my tofu last night pretty popular.. it was gone within half an hour... maybe it was the only really really spicy food among the rest..

ANYWAY.. it was a real fun time even thou I have test on the next day.. but still I didnt see Ai ( My ah Sou..) for almost a year..and didnt See Ming so much as well..
They will move to Miami after summer..so sad.. now everyone is leaving.. I wana leave also la! aiyo.. getting tired of this place.. luckily today is snowing..
p/s: I like snowing, but not snow.. cuz atleast snowing wont be that cold, but then..after that u can see dirty snow all over the place and eventually u skating all the time instead walking..

Will post some picz later..Sabar k~

Superbowl XLII

watch few minutes of AMERICAN football superbowl ( kinda like world cup final) This was the first time enjoying football, although just for the very last few minutes.. when NY Giant touched down for the last few minutes and won the season!! Poor New England Patriots..won all the game in the season and in the playoff..but too bad.. lost the last game..the most important game some more.. got one player damn yeng la.. Eli Manning!! ( No.10) girls like him..guys wanna be him ( like C.Ronaldo?? ) muahaha.. anyway.. having a cup of wine and watching football with some friends is not a bad idea to enjoy the rest of the day~