人生充满各种矛盾，如何以平常心，又能做出皆大欢喜的决定，是门深奥的学问，近来从一位朋友得知在美国还能找回初恋~羽球
看来我不适合做人生的投资，几乎做什么都注定失败，小时候，人生只有羽球，但有一天踢了球后，开始迷恋上了，当时还以为只是暂时性， 没想到，10年过了，人生的一半都和足球度过。。从那时起，打羽球的机会少只有少。。
现在呢，球体不成了，如果再踢多几场正赛，恐怕连走路都不行了，但至少，我已经证明给那些至以为是的马来人，华人也可以踢球！还有几个荣誉，不管中学还是大学，我都已经证明自己的实力，当初在美国的五人冠军， 之后被选进校队。。由这些回忆，应该是没遗憾了，所以现在我正式退出足球江湖从新以一个新人进羽球圈。。。
希望这次的投资是对的。。
08 年， 从两年就觉得会是个蛮不错，满期待的一年，但第一个月差不多要过玩了， 还是停留在07的霉， 心里还没调整好，我到底怎么了， 忽然发觉我已不是我
我看来是属于那种，一旦习惯了一个地方，某种生活作息，就觉得生活没意义了，没那么充实了。。有时变得散漫。。可能是从小到大搬家，换小学，转中学，甚至读大学也尝试过其他学校。。
想当年一来到这里人生地不熟， 每天忙东忙西，感觉很充实，态度也不同。。这样的经验，会觉得朋友感觉很多，知心的没几个，但从另一个角度想，分离，能让你看清世上的真真假假，谁才是朋友。。
如果有机会， 我会转到美国其它城市，但也要看缘分。。不过我直觉告诉我，我不会呆在这个冷地方太久！
我因太习惯美国了， 就连回马来西亚，刚开始真的以游客身份回去！ 好多东西感觉即陌生，又熟悉，好像见会初恋情人。。哈哈 但。。回的时候，又很舍不得，但知道是要回到另一个世界了！好怀念。。
像我这种不断要尝试新生活的人，感情上。。。无语！ 好听的话，给人说桃花运强， 不好听的就是花花公子。。但我从来都不是！只有真心付出过的人，流过泪的眼睛看得更清楚..毕竟曾经为了一个人，宁放弃好多友情，只为了能安她一心，也不想让她感觉我回去鬼混。。精打细算的我，会做这样的投资，因为觉得是值得的
但，这个投资还是注定失败，赔了夫人又折兵。。可能是报应？不知道。。。不过，碎了那么大一胶， 要再来应该没那么容易了。。。
看来我是生病了。。
Korea Club 办了一个小小的 sports night， 本以为有篮球可以打，谁知去了那儿，说要玩气球游戏， 体育室里还有那么人打球或踢球。。没办法，只有和他们无语的玩了这个游戏。。
不到一会儿，其他人开始觉得:"好像蛮幼稚的" 其他人看着我们这班20多岁的成年人玩那么cool的游戏。。
但惊讶的是，全部人说想踢球，连女孩也是！！ 那好吧。。踢球更好。。
说真的。。看女孩踢球蛮可爱..哈哈哈！！ 午餐时不应该吃那么辣的麻婆豆腐，害得我肚子辣得要命， 虽然进了三粒，而且我带领的队赢了比赛，但错过了也蛮多粒好球。。
晚上时，家里又有party..真是开始闷了。。每个星期都要party..好像没party 会死似的。。虽然是说室友的生日快到了，也不需要庆祝三天三夜吗！ 没开玩笑, 昨晚在家庆祝， 今晚去一家酒店庆祝， 幸好功课多， 有理由不去，不过感觉有点不好意识， 有点不给脸。。哈哈
上个星期，竟然有两个人喝醉了，一个不认识的还要谁在我床上，美女还好，又不是也。。><
之后还要照顾这些嘉宾到凌晨5点， 拜托，又不是我朋友。。全部都是室友的朋友， 他们呢？ 1个 醉了， 1 个装醉，和一个男人睡了，另一个陪男友了...
昨晚，室友又再醉，进了洗手间好久， 最后我们还要踢破门扶她起来，正是的！！ 门坏了，整间家唯一的厕所。。幸好今晚上可以安安静静霸完整间家，全部人去酒店睡了， 一个人在两层楼的房子正好！！ ^^ 好久没一个人的感觉了!!
with Japanese, Korean, Americans, blah blah..
^^
well... few things wanna write it here.. last night went to a korean friends house and we all chilled for a while ( a while = 3 hrs ) met some cute girls that night.. but no mood to know more about them.. u know lo.. after few beers and my precious wine..its white wine! Bescato California 06! Its so good.. even girls who dun like it eventually love it!
and then..this week keep listening to trances! Wow.. i think Im addicted to it, thanks to wey yew..and now even already.. He influence me trance, I influenced him about futsal..muakaka!! 
lenglui lehh..
Recently met back one of my family friend's daughter, DAYCEE Lee! Its been a while didnt meet her, since..12 years old?!! anyway.. last time we were used to be so childish and keep fighting to no-matter-what things.. when we went to North Msia,we were able to quarrel from KL until the destination..geng leh.. now..waliao!! She changed to a mature + lenglui girl! If not my mum said it, I wouldnt believe too..
and if anyone interested to be friends with her..feel free to call/email me! Gladly to help u guys..lol so glad can meet her back actually.. atleast school life is much interesting now.. cuz we still 'arguing' just like before..muahaha
Recently so xin xue lai cao... cooked so many Msian foods and tried so many diff kind of food.. Curry fish..ma po tofu.. some Utopian food.. ALL SPICY and NICE!!! 
ma po tofu
Sri Lanka
Utopian food
again..
and my fish curry! ^^
ermm... been so stress and lazy these few days.. NO MOTIVATION AT ALL!!!! i think i picked wrong classes this semester.. my molecular biology class, everyone is junior or senior, all of them have biochem or other advance bio background already.. but me.. NOTHING!!!! I feel like Im a 12 years old kid in form 5 class.. damn..
another class.. it isnt that bad..but still I feel like in form 2 class..WTH.. I dont have any idea about America History nor culture NOR any shit stuffs!!
So..tonight..i went to swimming at NDSU, my neighbour Uni..with my Msian friend. At first just got all those pork chops in the pool..sad la.. winter + pork chops = AM I deserve this?!! Thank god... finally WOMENS came.. but We were too hungry and went to buffet soon after that.. When I was stress..BUFFET is the best medicine!
I NEED TO PLAN about the Midwest-road trip for spring break.. I also cant decide whether wana exchange to LA or NY..and..dance for International night.. Im totally noob in dance..ask to plan for that! are u kidding me?!!! Dont care la..tell them put Jay songs for Chinese song la!! Anyone can tell me I should go to LA or NY?!
Its a really hard decision.. 'praying'
Had some weirdest dream ever.. I met someone that I havnt met for few years since form 2, and I met her again..she is my family friends's daughter.. we all used to travel together to all over the places in Malaysia..since we were borned.. mum told me she is in US also, and she met her before she got here.. most importantly, she told me she changed a lot compared to last time.. then how come I can know that girl in my dream is she?? so weird..
another dream..i think good news to my hengdai..ah wey yew!!! In my dream, he showed me his first music album!! yes.. he is a singer ( instead of mechanical engineer) lol.. so yew!! think about it, since you have a good voice~ lol
Actually all of us, I mean..all the Malaysian wanna just get some Indian buffet, since we all (except me) didnt have Indian food for a long long time.. that is a great Indian retaurent, but of course the food not exactly the same as Msian's Indian food..after that, we need to take the bus back, have to stop at a mall's bus stop, and that time was MEGA winter sales!! Got a nice shoes that I like it so much.. u know.. when u see something..u will know :" this is it!!" feeling keke, kinda rare I got that feeling for the shoes, maybe too frustrated for finding the shoes in Msia.. the most important is..its so cheap!! Just 10 bucks.. 50% cheaper than at Msian..^^
I also got some lotions for those ladies in my family and friends...finaly worth to wait it.. 6 bottles for 20 bucks!
Hopefully my friends can help me bring back so everyone can get it~ (Just girls..keke)
2 days ago, got the chance to get another school's ID..so next time can get in more easily d..for the parties and stuff ^^
哈咯！终于舍得try华语在这儿 blog blog..
回来这里，感觉无聊死了！ 没什么心情读书， 现在又没工作。。 烦死了！ 虽然父母说不必作，但还是觉得自己赚的钱， 花起来也比较有成就感。。 刚看完港剧的 “律政新人王Ⅱ” 终结有一个， 最爱的人，或许不是和你携手一辈子的人;和你终身的人，或许就是你预想不到的人..
明天回去打羽球！！让他们知道马来西亚人的厉害！！！
^^ 之后会大家聚在一起，吃喝玩乐！ Monday 放假嘛。。
最近超爱李圣杰的“最近”，在msia 是又无意中听见，而且又不是original 的，是remix版， 不过听到那个词，好想哭。。之前听时没感觉，现在，觉得歌里的主角那么多像我。。
最近 李圣杰
你 最近 不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你 最近 很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的 我却不能够 给你我全部
我能给的 却又不是你 想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输 好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释 这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是 所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱 我却不能给你我全部
我能给的 却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福
Gosh..although I backed from Msia almost a week, but I am not well prepare for every classes yet!! Sigh, life for this semester is extremly hard, especially 3 science classes. It is a big diffrence between the science class in MSUM and NDSU. Even NDSU is more popular than my school, but...honestly their science class is freaking easy compare to ours..
and..I still struggling about the general class Im taking.. at first I thought I signed up for wrong class, then since no much option, just simply take the government crisis class. sounds interesting but boring! I decided to drop it and retake my economic geography..hopfully that prof still let me in even its full and the dateline was over..
Dunno whether get used to Msia back or what.. culture shock still happening around me, not used to everything..feel weird about everything..sigh... most importantly, no more Jay song on the radio!! I still remember the best part back in Sekinchan, more than 10 Jay's songs played in radio! My dad even complained how come suddently so many Jay's song..LOL!
anyway..have to study now.. blog later~
